Deep inside,
I know I am strong.
But no matter how strong I am, I still have to face the hurting fact. And that hurting fact is, I am not strong enough without my pillars. I need them, I need those pillars to support me, to get myself through life.
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I have always believed that I am strong.
I am a lady of steel. I can withstand tough terrains and harsh climates. I can conquer Mount Everest and the Pacific Ocean. But I know, those are beyond my imagination. It was just a feeling to fake myself, to make me believe in lies, just to get myself through the hard times. And now, the feeling that I believed in, slowly fade away, revealing my true, weak self; a mere teenager.
I have always believed that I am strong.
I am not strong.
I am just a mere teenager that has so much angst in me.
A teenager that is weak at heart and has internal conflicts of no end. A teenager that thinks too much and wonders why the world is a place of no peace. A teenager that has yet to learn the real meaning of life, that needs those pillars for support, for guidance, for me to really believe that I am strong, deep down inside.
I am not strong.
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But it doesn't matter if I am no longer strong. I just have to make my way through life without being dependent to those pillars, which I know I can do it. Moreover, I am gonna be alone in
my own grave, later.
Deep inside,
I know I am strong.
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