Tuesday, November 03, 2009

I just do not know.
I have yet to be myself. Yet. I just could not bring myself to everything. Things as big and as important. Like A's. Or even going to the toilet. Seriously. It seems that I am just being accustomed to whatever that is happening around me. I am living shallow. Hollow. And I know this is depressing.
But things just went that way.

Myth:
I studied.

Fact:
I slept.

Myth:
I was busy.

Fact:
I slept.

Myth:
I was at school.

Fact.
I slept.

So you see.
Sleeping is my only therapy. I am of no money to make myself happy. I could not find the cause. But this is the effect. I have been searching for the cause but the effect keeps pushing in. I am tired of asking why. And how. But this happens all the time. Maybe I am just being apathetic. Or numb. Or playing dumb.
Or maybe I just do not know at all.

♥11:17 PM